Why Is a 58 Year Old Man Here......
While in chat last night a comment kind of stung. The comment was "are you trying to be a hipster". I think the fact that I am willing to come on here and put my camera on and reveal my age rather than hiding behind the keyboard would answer that question. Since 1995 KoRn has been special to me. I used to help out with Detroit's Z-Rock 102.7 WDZR. I got to meet Head and Jonathan. The shows were always great and the people and mosh pits friendly. I have been to shows where if you fell in the pit people would kick you in the head.
Then something strange happened ;). I grew older. I don't go to concerts like I used to. I don't play much metal like I used to. I have mainly moved on to other activities. Fast boating on the Great Lakes is my biggest passion and you will find me on all of the performance boating forums. However I am still quite young at heart and physically able to spend an entire KoRn show in the mosh pit! Yay!
I will listen to just about any music except pop country and opera. I play old bluegrass, John Denver has a special place in my heart and it's sad that he fought the drug and alcohol demons in his life that ended so short due to a plane crash. He is my chill music. I still play a lot of industrial and some gloom metal. A little hip-hop like Eminem and Lil Wayne. Outlaw country, Hank 3, Lords of Acid, FLA, The Doors. And, yes, KoRn. I'm rambling on here and will now get back to the point. My nephew, known as pyresflood here has been a long time KoRn fan and I took him to the Detroit show last week. I think it was kind of a last hurrah thing for me as far as hard rock concerts, or most concerts for that matter. You will never see me at a Neil Diamond or Barry Manilow show but Jimmy Buffet is possible. lol. I will continue to rip up Lakes St. Clair, Huron and Erie in my Donzi powerboat and I probably won't be on this site much longer.
I have learned more about KoRn since coming on this site. More about the personal lives of the band members, especially Jonathan Davis who was a misfit in school and endured teasing and bullying and some sexual abuse and who also questioned his sexuality at some point.
It is hard for me to say this without coming across as looking for sympathy or something which I am not but say it I will...I grew up in orphanages. Healy Shelter Home, Children's Home of Detroit, Wayne County Youth Home and Boysville. I suffered so much fucking physical abuse that I cannot describe it all without writing a book. I suffered some sexual abuse. I also questioned my sexuality but I am hetero.
When I was released at 18 years old I was unbelievably messed up and got into drugs and into trouble (the two go together) I've been in at least 10 different jails and did a little over a year in prison for breaking & entering small business's I was extremely introverted and thought I was a worthless piece of shit. I did not overcome this until I was about 40 years old.
Since then life has been good :). I own a week-end business and do quite well and have a lot of free time during the week to enjoy life. And I do enjoy life now! I have to take valium since I get stressed out easily but otherwise I am as OK as your average KoRn fan :).
I have truly become color blind to people. Blacks, Asians, Middle Easterners, Whites. We are all people.
So now I have rambled on and told my story which I have told to very few people but I think KoRn people will understand and relate!
And in conclusion: Am I trying to be a hipster? Fuck you.
KoRn fans; I love you! Young and old. American, German and Polish. All of you. Children of the KoRn are the best. Thanks for reading this. Peace.