so ill probably delete this tomorrow, but for tonight im free. another bottle gone and im feigning for more. i shake without the liquor on my lips and flowing down my throat. im lost, found but never sure. i feel like i need to throw up to get it out of me, its a demon i take in but always want out. alcohol grips me, frees me. but never the salvation im looking for.i know peeps out there have the same problem. alcohols not the way out or a escape from the situation or problem. its temporary relief but onces its gone im back to square one that i should have worked through rather than attempt to drink away. its not that easy, im fine but i need this out of me.