A Bit Depressed :(
Ok just to give a vague idea of how scary crazy of a Jonathan Davis fan I am, when I get depressed I start missing him like I KNOW HIM LOL. I'm so poor I haven't even been lucky enough to see him in concert and I know that if I don't hurry I'm never going to get a fucking chance!!!
Anyway so today is one of the days that I'm so down and out that I'm listening to KoRn and ignoring the lump in my throat as hard as I can. I'm gonna tell you what I'm going through and see what you guys think, my grandmother thinks I'm doing right to forgive, my mom wants to go get her razor knife and cut a bitch so.....Alright so I've been dating this guy for three years, and when we got together he was the SWEETEST man you'd ever meet. I know a lot of dumb ass girls say that but he actually was, he was attentive, understanding, helpful, he listened I mean the whole nine yards. Over the years we've been facing HORRIBLE financial strain and it started showing in our relationship a bit, but nothing that I couldn't understand or handle. So I finally help get him on facebook and we start adding his family and friends to his friend list. While we were friending we came across his ex Amy and I (trying to be the understanding girlfriend) add her to his friends list. But IMMEDIATELY after I go to the restroom, come out and they are now texting each other. Two days later I get home at 7 in the morning from a very long night and the minute I walk in the bedroom his phone goes off, its Amy texting him to be careful at work that day and he's been sleeping with his phone IN THE BED. I pitched a fit, he got upset but listened and I thought that was the end but then the next day I still had this bad gut feeling so I texted him and told him I felt like there was a crash in our future. His very next reply to that very message said "I hope not we've been working hard, but look Amy I have a lot of work to do in the house so I'll call so we can talk so more tomorrow ok?" !!!!!! My name is ANNA!!! He'd sent me the wrong message and its in this way that I find out they've been calling each other...needless to say I WENT PSYCHO CRAZY SCARY SERIAL KILLER GIRLFRIEND...he immediately removed her from his facebook, blocked her number and SWORE to me that it was a complete misunderstanding....hes never given me reason to doubt him before but I've been done wrong A LOT by other men so I just do not know what to trust! What do you guys think? seriously I need some advice here...what about you guys out there? Any of you feel like giving some of the guy code secrets away to a girl? PLEASE!!