Continued, Why we love KoRN
Three years ago my lung collapsed and I was hospitalized for a month. Every day seemed like a battle for my life, actually it was. Constant pain every day being pumped with drugs doctors not knowing why my lung collapsed. Hell. Trapped in a room, in a bed, and in my head. Nearly dying every day...it broke me. Crying in my bed, calling for a nurse to take me to my bathroom not two feet from my bed and thats assuming I could even stand. I remember praying to god, first time in years. Id abondoned my faith years before id becime full atheist fighting that,fucking asshole on every front I could find. Yet there I was, a broken man of just nineteen years fighting just to live. Id prayed for forgiveness, id prayed for help, and prayed for strength..... The next day still haunts my memories. my lung had collapsed again and i couldnt make it to the surgery room so they did it right there in my room, while i was awake. I couldnt even scream.
Finally after i woke up hours later some time in the early a.m after all the drugs wore off i turned to KoRn. The song, Justin. For those who dont know the song is about a little boy named Justin whose dying wish was to meet KoRn. This had extra meaning for me not because i was currently in the hospital but because my first name is Justin. "The kids that die listening to me, .. you are alive." Well i just got goosebumps typing those lyrics. That song gave me strength when nothing else could. Helped me to say " Hey if i die, its ok. Somehow ill live through KoRn. I dont wanna die but if I do, well anyone who knows me cant forget me when they hear KoRn and ill live in there memories.;" ... I Finally made it out of the hospital after a month of being trapped in there. That whole experiance changed my life forever, nothing has ever been the same since. Save one thing, my devotion to the band who saved my life not only once, but twice. These experiances are just two of the mile-stones in my life that KoRn has helped me with. So many hard times theyve helped me through honestly im editing what i want to say to everyone reading this because im just so tired ( i work two jobs i only really get a chance to blog at like 3 in the morning). In future i will attempt to discuss some of these hard times that Korn has helped me through as well as try to write other blogs. I hope that someone finds solace or help by reading these knowing that they are not alone in this fucked up world. Theres plenty of KoRn fans (real KoRn fans) that are willing to help you in your time of need. All you have to do is find them. Just make sure when your better and you feel you have something to offer someone, you find that person who needs you. The person who needs someone to talk to. Someone who needs "Somebody Someone" the person who needs KoRn. People face new battles everyday, and every battle is a chance to turn someone to KoRn. Remember guys Life is Peachy.