my pain

Tue, Apr 3, 2012 at 7:30 PM By: ninjadevilbitch

Have you ever felt true pain?
The kind of pain that cuts your soul,
The kind of pain that pierces your heart,
The kind of pain that makes you want to die,

This pain transcends the physical and mental boundary,
It seeps into yourself and hurts you repeatedly,
It makes you want to cry out and scream,
But your afraid that someone will hear,

You want to scream,
But your afraid that someone will hear,
You’re forced to keep a smile on your face for everyone,
While inside you slowly suffer,

You’re afraid to speak,
Silent you remain,
And when you try,
No one will listen,

You’re afraid to let someone get too close to you,
Because they might see your hidden pain,
Yet apart of you want them to see it,
So they may help you,

You wish for death to come and take you,
But even he does not listen,
And you know you can’t die,
Because there’s so much left for you,

So here you suffer,
Isolated from the world,
All alone,

You sit in a corner thinking that there is no one to help you,
No friends at all,
Because you’re afraid that they will reject you,
That they wont help you,

But they want to help,
They want to save you,
To heal you,
To end your pain,

You see them through the darkness,
They’re reaching out to you,
But you inch away from them,
Thinking that you can help yourself,

But you cant, not completely,
Eventually the pain returns,
Helped along by pain anew,
Pulverizing you,

This pain,
This sorrow,
This loneliness,
This suffering…

Is my life...

  1. SAFLove avatar

    On Sun, Aug 18, 2013 at 8:21 PM, SAFLove said:

    pulverization..yup thats what it does..the thing is pain needs to come out and end, and there is an end cuase..ive been thru alot,..and i know where to give that pain.too some positive energy that lets me see the other views in life. and makes a new path to live on that actaully is against the pain..and situtaitons of pain..and brings me t oa new horizon..where i can feel the negative no more..but the posiitive. energy...positive energy helps makes lifely choices and refreshes the mind..literally..but mediate for positive energy!

  2. Sunset_Tahoe avatar

    On Wed, Apr 11, 2012 at 10:20 AM, Sunset_Tahoe said:

    I think i know how you feel. I feel this every day.

  3. cdu avatar

    On Wed, Apr 4, 2012 at 4:34 PM, cdu said:

    Crushing last line :(

  4. MissKorn avatar

    On Wed, Apr 4, 2012 at 5:02 AM, MissKorn said:

    feel the same as well ..sometimes i think i'm ok but inside i'm brain is playing with me..
    hope you'll feel better soon Vero...and thx for the words Ninjadevilbitch

  5. Vero avatar

    On Tue, Apr 3, 2012 at 7:46 PM, Vero said:

    :( I read it and I was about to cry. So real for me at this moment. I feel so alone and I wanna scream and cry but all is inside me. No one knows.

    Hope it will get better soon for both of us and everyone who's feeling the same!

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