Guys, life is just hard.
I've never done a blog before, and I've never opened myself up enough to really speak about my emotions, but now I want to express how important it is to stay strong when everything just seems to go wrong in life. Maybe one day I'll be able to help and inspire someone, anyone, when they need that one person to look up to. I'm only fifteen, guys, but my mental maturity is that of a twenty year old. That doesn't make life in high school any easier for a "good girl", or the overly intelligent kid, or the quiet depressed girl. I just cannot connect with people, and I get pushed around. I act happy when I can, but inside I'm really full of sadness, pain, confusion, and anger. Korn is the only thing in the world that's able to fix things, if even just for a little bit. You know the song, Thoughtless, right? Man, that song is where I go to when I think about all of those imbeciles at high school. I cannot be perfect, and I'm expected to be a lot of the time. Dead bodies everywhere and Children of the Korn is then where I drown. My biggest inspiration is Korn. I owe them, and especially Jonathan a huge thanks for getting me through this pain. I would give a lot to meet Jonathan. He's so talented and so inspiring. Without their music, I'm not sure where I would stand. I've always LOVED Korn, but now, their helping me find my voice. Not yet, but I'm slowly getting there. Slowly. Maybe there's somebody out there who can reach this goal with me. It's my hopes to inspire someone, too. Maybe then, I'll understand my true strength.