the day i went to korn's studio....RIP ASH

Sat, Aug 18, 2012 at 9:25 AM By: sH3LLz

sooo i wrote that title to catch your eye, this blog is more about my friend ashley who was a huge korn fan, she commited suicide last year, i thought you should know about her. i met ashley on korn kamp around 2004. we used to yahoo chat all the time, then we exchanged phone numbers and talked on the phone. i went to cali one year to meet up with her and a lot of other kampers, at tuna town. ashley let me and another korn fan from az crash at her house. through the years we became pretty close, we had a lot in common, especially our love for korn. we met up at shows and i had visited her again in cali. one year ashley got real sick and was in the hospital, she had ITP the same blood disease or whatever it is that jd had. one day she calls me up and says guess who came to visit me today, it was FIELDY!!!!!...


sooo after about 5 minutes of me trippin out on the phone, that he had gone to visit her. she told me they exchanged numbers. well they had been texting each other for a little bit, she calls me up one day and says that fieldy invited her to go to the studio to watch them jam, i was like NOOOOOOO WAYYYYYYYYYYY. just freaking out inside for her, she then says u should go with me and i'm like what, i dont know man, they didnt really invite me and thats their territory, she's like naw its ok i will ask fieldy if i can bring a friend. i'm like ahhhh ok, so she texted him and he said ya no problem. so she calls me and tells me that and im like WHAAAAT, this can't be happening, but there was a bit of a problem, i had no way to cali, and in just a few days. i had no money, nothing. so i asked my mom if her and her bf had to for some reason go to cali that weekend, she said actually we are, i was like WHAT ARE YOU SERIOUS. they were going to modesto and i needed to get to bakersfield, where ashley lived. it was on the way, so we made plans to drop me off. i can't describe what was going through my body at the time........


soooo( i like how i start my paragraphs with sooo, haha but anyways)i get to bako, meet up with ash, stay a couple nights at her house, we had fun, went to the movies, she showed me around bako, it was cool, she had a nice house that was nice and cozy. well here comes monday morning where we make the drive out to hollywood to the studio. we were both all sick and nervous, i couldn't even eat anything. i remember the drive, we were just like is this happening right now. i remember seeing our turn off sign saying like 2 miles away, i was getting so um i dont even know the word. well we pull up to the studio, we are at the gate and i look behind us and fieldy is in his car, i was like ahhh shit fieldy is behind us lol. we pull in and park, fieldy walks over and says whats up, at that time david pulled and parked. we walked in with fieldy, he showed us around, offered us drinks in the fridge. we sat on this little couch right in front of their instruments set up. munky came in and he looked at us and said hey. jonathan showed up last just as they were about to start. so they start to jam and i think it was probably the best i have felt at any moment. it was so awesome, llike seriously the best thing ever. i would look at ash and we were just like wow. fieldy came over on a break and was all like u better not be recording lol. it's becuz see you on the other side hadn't been released yet, and they played songs from it, hypocrites and liar. they sounded so good. they ended up playing 18 songs, but practiced 4 of them a second time. munk was really worried about singing, since head had just left and he had to sing now. after they were done rehearsing, i noticed a sheep i had given fieldy a couple years before was in the studio sitting on one of their speakers. so he came over and i told him that he was like whaaat really and gave me a little handshake. david took off so fast i didn't even notice. ashley went to go say hi to jonathan, and she came back to me and said hey he wants to say hi to u, he had asked her, is that shell in there, tell her to come here so i can say hi before i leave. so i went out there and said whattup, i told him that he had better go on korner that night to chat, he's like ok ha and he left with nathan. at that time fieldy comes out and we end up talking to him for about an hour, mostly about head, since he had just left. the convo we had was life changing believe it or not. fieldy talked about so much positive stuff that i took with me. he gave us some autographed pics of him, we got to check out his new car. he asked if we wanted to go back inside to say bye to munk, so we did and munk was in the recording part of the studio and we talked to him for a little bit, he was his usual cool funny self, it was so awesome. well we said bye to him and then went outside said bye and thanks to fieldy and we left......


the ride home, i had this feeling like cloud 9 times 1000(that was kind of lame to say) anyways lol at that point in my mind, my perspective on life changed. i had this new attitude of anything is possible, i stiill have it to this day. i willl never ever ever forget that day, it really was like a dream. i'm so blessed and im so blessed to have shared it with one of my good friends. it's so sad that ash isn't around anymore, i wish she would have known how much she is worth. she's always with me, especially when divine comes on, that was her favorite song, she had it tatted. i miss her and i love her and i will always be thankful for her for letting me go with her that day. forever grateful . RIP ASHLEY THIO!!!!!!

  1. sH3LLz avatar

    On Tue, Aug 21, 2012 at 6:17 PM, sH3LLz said:

    thanks guys

  2. KoRnismyO2 avatar

    On Mon, Aug 20, 2012 at 2:50 PM, KoRnismyO2 said:

    Wow, that sounds like it was a really awesome day n that's so great u have that memory with ur friend. RIP...

  3. cryptic avatar

    On Sat, Aug 18, 2012 at 7:01 PM, cryptic said:

    I'm seriously pissed off you wrote this entry like this, Miss Cedillo.
    Did you forget Ashley was also a friend of mine and I would call you out on this bullshit?
    I just can't believe you're using her death to make yourself look more "oldschool".
    You truly are a piece of filth.

  4. cryptic avatar

    On Sat, Aug 18, 2012 at 6:53 PM, cryptic said:

    She also told you you weren't invited to the studio. As I recall Jon was all set to get a restraining order against your psycho ass.

  5. Sammie avatar

    On Sat, Aug 18, 2012 at 1:25 PM, Sammie said:

    Its so rare to find a friend like that. I'm sorry for your loss.

  6. Igo4KORN avatar

    On Sat, Aug 18, 2012 at 11:08 AM, Igo4KORN said:

    That must of been a great day....and to share it with a friend is even better. A day to remember and cherish. I'm sorry that you lost your friend. RIP Ash

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