why can't i be good enough?!!! what the fuck makes every one else so much damn better than me? im nvr enough for any one no matter who it is and im so sick of it.. not one damn person can love me and stay with me... im a fucking waist of flesh so god damn replaceable that i don't know why i even fucking bother being here at all... i want to cut the ties, my wrists, my throat. i wanna bleed out on the flore and finally feel this worthless life leave me. i want to fucking die!! im so sick of being here... of being me.. why does my dad have to need me so much? why can't he just not love me like the rest of the world? he has my brother and sister, why cant they mean this much to him? one fucking person.. one person has to hold on to me for their hope in this life.. one person has to make me keep dragging my self threw this fucking torcher that is my life... fuck you dad!! i just wanna fucking end it and you wont let me!