Nobody makes mistakes like me . . .

It's not even just a simple or regular mistake,
everything I do or at least TRY to do is a disaster.
ALL THE TIME.
Me being me, all I do is just make it worse.

It's like . . .
the ONLY reason I was put on this planet is
so I can be miserable my whole life
and forced to watch everyone in the world
with their perfect, happy lives and gifted success.

Why is it all difficult for me . . . but it seems like
nobody else ever has these problems?

I don't back down . . . I NEVER back down from anything.
The results of all those possibilities and opportunities,
due to my actions just leave me in a state of depression . . .

I think too much and I assume everything.

That's just how I've trained myself to avoid being hurt
and disappointed before it could even happen.

I am constantly in defense mode just to prepare myself for anything.

I'm not the only one who feels this way on a daily basis, am I . . . ?